I lived three lives before picking up a camera. I grew up in a loving, protective home and attended good schools. I lived through a recession where a college degree couldn’t get me a job in a grocery store. I’ve lived for months on less money than I now make in two weeks. I’ve bought one-way tickets to foreign countries with no plan to return. I return. Luck is my superpower. I’ve sat for hours by Mother Teresa’s tombstone arguing with gods. I’ve loved deeply and darkly, and despite my expectations I’ve learned to talk about it fondly. I’ve had help. I’ve processed my life in poems, stories, and songs; some of them are burned and buried. In most senses of the word but the usual one, I’ve lived a blessed life.

I work as a doctor now. Work supports my artist habit. I obsess over composition so I know what rules I’m breaking. When I take a photo, I’m looking at the past as much as at the present. I want my photos to feel like shuffling through a rolodex of dreams and memories. I experiment a lot. I’ve destroyed some of the best photos I’ve ever taken. I take more.

Inspirations

Late Turner paintings

Blue hour

Skeletal trees

Satoshi Ashikawa’s album “Still Wave”

Analogous color schemes

Chuck Johnson’s album Balsams

Holding hands

The movie Kaili Blues

Naomi Novik’s novel Uprooted

Van Gogh

Imaginary Softwoods

Youtube videos by Ibasho Gallery

Folk horror film landscapes

The Bronte sisters

Internet Archive

Tim Hecker

Mastering Composition by Ian Roberts; Color Choices by Ian Quiller; The Tao of Chinese Landscape Painting by Wucius Wong

Studio Ghibli

Driftwood

Justin Vernon and Van Morrison writing their lyrics last for some of their best albums

The movie Your Name

Post-apocalyptic landscapes (Last of Us, Horizon Zero Dawn, Stalker)

JRPGs

Playlists

Favorite Malibu/DJ Lostboi - foggy drives and editing

Green town, blue sea - bucolic escape

Magic - sleep or mysticality

Damn - badass female bands or leads

The Detective’s Piano - classical piano moods

Dreams of Italy - surreal neo classical

Neo Love & Future Lonesome - vaporwave-ish ambient

Ghibli-style classical - self-explanatory